I have been up all night "thinking, pondering and praying" for an answer

For many years I have been a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints. I have held many callings in the church. (Callings are volunteer positions within the church, such as a teacher or leader.) My callings through the years have been teaching kids/teenagers and most of that time has been in the primary, all children ages 3 to 11. I have always wondered why I never had a leadership calling. I would watch some leaders in the ward and see that they stayed in certain positions for a while. I don't mind teaching. I love children and it is fun. I was just curious why things work the way they do. Just wondering.

Soon after we got Kayla, I got a new calling. A leadership calling. I was amazed. I am assistant to the secretary in primary. You may think it's not much but to me it sounds like a lot of fun. However, I am nervous. Am I leader? Can I fulfill my position in a positive way? Can I do a good job? That was my small leadership calling.......then came something else.....

Have I ever done volunteer work before, you bet ya! Do I believe we need to give back to the community, you bet ya! Have I ever done MAJOR volunteer work for a long period of time, uh NO! One of the caseworkers at LDS Family Services was at our home a couple of weeks ago doing a home visit. She told me that there was a seat being opened on the FSA Board (families supporting adoption). It's the first chair, main person, kind of like the president, oh you know what I mean. My friend, Tiff has been the main chair person and she has done an awesome job at it!! Do they really want me? Do I really have what it takes to fill this position in a positive way? Being stretched is good and isn't there a scripture about having faith? :) I know I have the passion but do I have all the other stuff that goes along with it?

I have been thinking about and waying all my options. Last night I was up all night thinking about FSA and what a blessing it has been to Ryan and I. I thought about all the couples who are trying to adopt for the first time and need that glimmer of hope. So with passion in my heart, ideas in my head and fear to come along with me.....i have decided.....

TO ACCEPT THE POSITION

now, I just have to make the official phone call to Brenda at LDS Family Services. Maybe I can sleep a well tonight!! :)